Unfortunately, it didn't end well. As a matter of fact, it ended quite badly. After a day of wondering what I did wrong, what I could have done to change things, I decided to go out with a friend for Queso and Margaritas! Today, I had a mimosa brunch with some wonderful ladies, and lunch with a great guy and his adorable daughter. When I got home, something clicked. While I really wanted things to be how they were, the fun, the laughter the good times, longing for the past was not going to allow me to enjoy my future. Being mad and sad and depressed, was going to keep me from having a good time with those I was with in the present!
Sometimes our perspective of the past is tinted with rose colored glasses. We see the beauty we had and we forget the ugly. We forget we were treated with disrespect. We want to remember the happy, not the sad.
Of course this is a very natural thing. I mean, who really wants to remember the bad parts? Certainly not me. But sometimes we have to look at those bad things, not as something we ever want to go back to, but as something we need to learn from.
So that's what I'm doing. Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, unfortunately, shame on me this time. However, rather than dwelling much longer (we all have the right to feel down every once and a while, don't get me wrong) but rather than longing for something that was never there, it's time to focus on the future again. Careers, friends, family and love!
I wish there was some poetic way of concluding these thoughts, but really there's not. Pretty much, all the pain we go through is for a reason. It's a lesson of what we need out of life, and what we want. So rather than longing for the past, look to the past, and make your future better!
