My rolls

You know what I love about my bootcamp class?  Not only do I get an amazing workout, I learn something new about me.  Either that it's I can push myself to new limits, or even if it's something about my personality, that, I knew was there, deep down somewhere but it was hiding.


Well this morning, standing around chatting, a wonderful fellow bootcamper brought up rolls. She basically was saying how, we, as women especially, seem to take on a lot of them.  I'm not saying just doing chores, I'm talking about who we are in life.

Contemplating on the way home (on my quick five minute drive) I thought, I should figure out just who I am. Well, unfortunately that seems to take longer than five minutes.  But what better way to figure that out than here, where the whole world can see my most inner thoughts, eh?

So here is a list of who I am.  Some are "well, duh!" and others may require a bit of explanation.

1. Wife to the most wonderful, caring hubby and soldier a girl could have. He has allowed me to live my dreams, and never once said "maybe you should just go get a 9 to 5er."  He knows I couldn't be happy with just doing that.  No matter what, he stands behind me!

2. Daughter to two parents who taught me to be who I am in life. They taught me to always stand my ground, speak my mind and to always be who I am.

3. Mother to my two puppies and one lizard! 

4. Strong shoulder- Maybe this includes being a friend, but whenever someone needs a friend, I'm there for them (and I hope all my friends know this!) So many times people ask me "how do you do it?!" Whether it's referring to going through two deployments, or working out like a mo-fo, but again, no matter what, it's just being strong for the people around me. Someones gotta, right? :)

5 .Bootcamper- Three days a week, I'm up at 5 am, ready to go get my bootcamp on. It's helped me become what I am now, and I will always say it has!

6. Future soldier- While "soldier" is not an option, YET, I still try to train everyday, as hard as I can, to be the best I can. Whether it's exercise or daily tasks, I believe a soldier should be strong in everything they do.

7. Boxer- I've found a new love. Whenever I put on those gloves, I feel like a new person. Someone who I've never been before.

8. Fighter- Seriously, don't get in my way! :)

9. Runner- Each time I run, I go for something new. Whether it's a distance or time, I have to push to new limits.

10. Friend- I'm ashamed that this is so far down the list. I have the most supporitve and wonderful friends a girl could ask for, and sometimes I feel like they come, well, 10th in my life. That's not a good thing. I can see now it's time to prioritize a bit!

11.Inspirer- Every day someone tells me "Cara, you're such an inspiration!" Well, I'm just a person and to have people say this constantly, believe it or not, can be very stressing! I love that I can help people reach their goals, but then I feel, if I don't meet mine, that others are going to lose hope. And that's something I really don't want to have happen.

12.Dreamer- Sounds like a McCartney song, eh? Well, maybe I am. Whenever I'm driving down the highways in the morning, no cars around, I dream of just keeping on going. When I go past the airport I think of just getting on a plane and flying to an exotic destination. I love to live vicariously through people who get to go places, see things do things I've never had a chance to do.

13. Politicizer/Justice Seeker- POLITICS. Especially lately. Everywhere I look I see politics. On the
street, on Facebook, in yards, on cars, and boy does it make my blood boil.  I clump these two together because I feel like our politicians on both sides, are screwing over the little guys. I know of people working four jobs, and currently seeks another two.  The bible says to love each other, and help others, and I'm sorry, that means everyone, not just the people on the same side of the isle.

Okay, so that's a list of 13 things I am, and that's just off the top of my head!!  As I was wraping up the list, I realized there are three MAJOR things not on there.  Number one, a sister.  My sister and I don't always see eye to eye.  Okay, the only thing we see eye to eye on, is literally, eye to eye. We are the exact same height.  Maybe I'm a bad sister, I dunno. I'm not always the most supportive in the world. I also have a big mouth and WILL say what I think when I think, whether it's appreciated or not! We are total, 100% polar opposites. I don't make an effort like I should. I can use distance as an excuse, but then she comes to town and I still don't see her. Maybe as time goes that will change, I hope it does.

The next thing I'm missing on there is being a Christian.  I believe in God, I believe in heaven, I believe in (most) of the bible.  However, it's not something that happens in my everyday life. (Let's hope my pastor's don't read this!) I have friends who live their lives around God. Awesome! That's not who I am. I struggle with the existence. If God controls EVERYTHING, why is there famine?  Why is there hate?  Why is it we aren't helping everyone? Why are there natural disasters that kills thousands?  Why are there some people who get looks, money, personality, love and fame and others who have to work their butts off just to get a third part time job as they come home to an empty house with no love? I would think God would be an equal opportunity god...


Finally, the last thing on my list, which should definitely be on there, is Cara.  I am who I am.  All these things shape me, day in and day out. While I'm not the best at being everything I am the best at being Cara. Whether that's being a shoulder to cry on, or punching a bag as hard as I can, what more is there, except being me?!