Two good men

I'm not a religious person by any means. I think 80% of what the bible says is crap and honestly, pretty irrelevant for life today! I am however, a spiritual person! I believe that there is a god, and that Jesus died for us, and I do believe in heaven, and if you're a good person, when you die, you'll go there!

Now I'm sure you're saying "Cara, what the heck does this have to do with your weight loss?" Well, let me give you a little insight.  Both my grandpas were in the Army, and both loved to serve! My dad's dad was also a police officer in Minneapolis and was a very respected man! My poppop, my mom's dad, was a Sgt. in WWII. If you know anything about ranks, an E-5 in WWII was not an easy rank to achieve! It was the equivalant of about an e-7 or e-8 today! He had to really prove himself in the ranks!

Unfortunately, neither of these two men are around anymore to help me with my journey.  However, I am quite lucky because they are both burried at Ft. Snelling Cemetery  (This is where the spiritual part comes into play!)  When I'm struggling with weight, or motivation or just really need someone to listen (admit it, live people like to talk about themselves and very rarely like to listen!) I head to my thoughtful spots, one on a hill among many fallen heroes, and one in a field with the same company!

Sometimes when I go there I cry, sometimes I laugh, sometimes I talk, and sometimes I just sit.  But whenever I go, the last thing I say to both of them is "Thanks again, let's keep on truckin!" I know that even if they aren't here physically, they are here spiritually.  These two men help me get through the hardest of times!! They are my guardian angels! They are the reason I've done what I've done, they have guided me to the situations I've been in, THEY have helped make me stronger both physically and mentally and emotionally!

Sometimes though, like any human, I forget. I forget that they are with me wherever I go.  However, the last 3 runs in a row, I've seen 2 morning doves. They aren't like regualr birds.  Normally if a person got as close as I have each time, they'd fly away.  These two sit on the sidewalk as I run by, and just watch. Maybe 2 feet away from them it's like they're waiting for me everytime! 

This is my reminder that I am not in this struggle alone! There is a plan for me, and while I may not see it now, it is starting to unfold! It's not happening as quickly as I'd like, but like the doves sitting patiently and waiting for me each day, I know that I'll get there, just as long as my doves don't fly away!