Irrational Females

This morning, I was very hot under the collar. Life the last couple days have just not gone well, and honestly, all I really wanted to do today, was be mad.  During PT, I was lucky to have a battle who just listened to me talking about how I wanted to punch people, how I wanted to run away, and hate the world!

Then people kept telling me "it'll be okay" yadda yadda.  The typical, good intentioned, pat on the shoulder stuff. But I just wanted to be mad!!!! And like I had a friend say, just have a pitty party!  Some people might think this is a terrible thing, but you know what, I don't give a damn.  I love being there for my friends and family when they're upset.  I love getting calls and I'm actually able to comfort them when times get hard for them. And maybe that's exactly what I was looking for today, I dunno.  But that's the beauty of social media, I can say what I want, and if you want to read it, you can.  If you don't want to, don't!

Maybe this is an irrational female thing.  I dunno. But I realized I don't care either. I am a female.  Sometimes I cry for no reason. Sometimes I let people have more power over my emotions than I should.  I am SO happy one minute and then bawling the next. I think the worst possible outcomes for most situations. I want to be surrounded by my loved ones, yet I want to be left alone.

Basically, what I'm saying here, is sometimes, all I want, is to be an irrational female.  There's not just ONE reason I'm mad, or happy.  Just go with it.  I'm learning that tomorrow might be better, but it might be worse. I dunno. All I know about tomorrow, is that I know nothing!