To be continued...??

Today is the day of judgement...well, today and tomorrow morning! I didn't want to post anything because I am a firm believer in curses, if I say something, I won't get it. Whenever I watch a Twins game on TV, they seem to lose.  Whenever I'm cheering for any particular team, they lose! Colin makes fun of me all the time for thinking this way.  I figured, hey, better safe than sorry, no?

However, I couldn't not write anything because I've realized the thing that has been getting me through these last few hard times is everyone's encouragement! So, like I said, today is the day of judgement. I'm going to MEPS (Military Entrance Processing Station) Oh, let me back up a spot or two, I made tape at the recruiter's office!!! That was huge (it would have been a bigger deal if Tony, my dog, hadn't needed 30 stitches, but that's a whole nother story!)

So  because I made it there, I filled out all my paper work that I need and they're sending me to MEPS.  Tonight is the night I take my ASVAB. I've been studying for this thing for a long time. I'm fairly confident with it. I'm a smart gal, most of the time.  It's tomorrow morning that has been causing me to lose sleep...and a lot of it! Thursday they're going to be waking me up bright and early (no too early, it is the government after all) and I'm going to be measured.  I've been calling this process "The Nazi Tapes" because they are SO much stricter, and if they think I'm sucking in or cheating in any way, I'll fail!

Before every karate tournament when I was younger, my dad would always tell me "Remember Cara, you have the best teachers, you've had the best training, give it all you got!" The same sort of thing applies here.  I've had the best trainers, I've had the biggest support group and been working my arse off for almost 3 years now.

Maybe it's my time, maybe it's not. I don't know. All I know is, there isn't a lot in life that scares me, but I'm terrified right now. I'm so scared of the rejection I may face tomorrow morning. Everyone's been saying "you got this" and I'm beyond grateful for all the support, but I'm more used to "not quite there" that's all I can seem to think about.  I'm trying not to, but it's these old tapes.

Well, there really isn't a lot more to say, except, HOPEFULLY I'll have good news to report tomorrow. If I don't, well, I guess that damn horse is gonna get another couple miles on it!