Weight loss, and the training I'm doing is one of the biggest emotional roller-coasters I've ever been on! You think puberty is bad, try losing 100 pounds!
Yesterday, I was feeling SO good about myself! Able to wear clothing I've never been able to. Today...a much different story! As I finished my physical therapy today I was feelin' pretty good! Not the best, but good. Then I went to the gym. I did my elliptical machine for half n hour and was doing okay. Then I got on the treadmill and STRUGGLED!! I could barely go at the 6.0 pace for 3 minutes!! I barely got to half a mile!! Sure, something is better than nothing, I know, but for those who don't know, in the Marines, you can run up to 6 miles at a time at bootcamp. Not a stroll of 6 miles, a RUN!! But you do it almost everyday!
When I think about that, my heart gets so heavy and I just question what I'm doing...again. Am I really meant to be one of the best of the best?? My heart and my soul say "oo-rah, Semper Fi" but my body is saying "viva Air Force! Let's take the easy way out!"
But I can't!! I'm at the point where, anything other than the Eagle, Globe and anchor on my chest is not right, and it's giving up! Ladies and gentlemenwelcome to the scariest roller-coaster on Earth- the roller-coaster of Cara's emotions!!
We all have ups and downs babe. Don't let a setback get you too down. I KNOW you can be a success at whatever you go for. don't ever give up on your dream.
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