Obstacles

I was asked today, "what's the hardest obstacle you've come across in your weight loss, thus far?" Of course I started listing things like the bakery at cub, or the pizza shop down the road.  Then later, while in my own movie world, I got thinking a little bit deeper.


While those are very hard things to overcome, what are my serious obstacles?  Everyday I wake up and have to tell myself "you can do it!" because, my hardest obstacle in my life, is just that, life!  My mind and my heart battle each other, every single day, and I am stuck in the middle.  It's not even just about weight loss all the time, it's about constantly doing the right thing. 


So, how do I get through the days?? My answer. . . hell if I know! Each day I struggle, with what I should be doing in my life.  I see my friends going to work, and having careers, creating lives for themselves. I'm jealous! I wish I could be okay with that. I really do. But, my heart is telling me not to settle. Don't settle for anything less than I dream to be! Right now, that dream is to be part of the Few and the Proud.  However, my head goes to the mailbox everyday and sees the bills. My head sees friends being able to afford more lavish things. It sees the fact, that I am choosing a route, that, in reality, I may fail at.  And that's the battle of the head and the heart.  That is my obstacle.  


Again, how do I get through the day? Just that. I get through, one day at a time.  Everyday is a challenge when you're trying to accomplish something big.  Rome wasn't built in a day, and my weight wasn't added in a day!

"Defeat is not bitter unless you swallow it."  ~Joe Clark.  I will never accept defeat. When I lose the weight I need, I will sign the papers, I will take the tests and I will go. If, by some odd reason, I don't make it through OCS, I will be able to look at myself in the mirror and know that I gave it everything I could.  It took a while, but I got there one step at a time!  So, head & heart...it's time you start listening to me!!